Happy New Year!
Listen to the song XD
I really should have finished this piece hours and hours ago, but I got distracted reading Chronicles of Darkness books and suggesting to the kids that we try a short run to test the system out and see if we like it enough to switch. And so I don't have a story for this one because it's 1am.
Yeh right like I ever take them.
I have seriously been moving like molasses and I really do need to actually change something, but because I'm me I'll probably just burnout again, have to recover for a few days again during which I'll relentlessly beat myself up over being an idiot again and that I really should have fixed it before it became this bad again, only to do exactly the same thing down the line again.
Neither of my main projects have advanced too much further since the last progblog. I've kind of started working on Gundry's hands
and Zara's tattoo is still going.
The last major gymnastics event for the year is over, which took a lot of pressure off.
I finished the photobooks, more pressure off.
Then stuff happened with made things ramp up again, and it got so bad that I deliberately didn't do some mental health stuff that would have helped the frame of mind I fell into because there is literally absolutely no point whatsoever, because I'm wrong and everyone else is right and that's all there is to it no matter what.
And after I got over the thing that put me into the depressive spiral in the first place (spoiler: not actually over it) I felt really annoyed about not having progressed any of my projects so I stayed up late once more ostensibly to try to get some prog for the blog (I really need to stop staying up late and waking up early, apparently lack of sleep is pretty bad).
Stuff is ramping up.
I've been mostly working on photobooks trying to get them done in time for printing and shipping back to the island in the vain hopes it might not get there too late. I've also been working on my dice system (it has undergone two major overhauls in about as many days) and roleplaying notes (gained a bit of extra time as the kids didn't feel like playing the weekend just gone, I brought the stuff over anyway just in case I actually needed it but got to just hang with my friend the entire time).
And I need to try harder to catch up with the homeschool miscellanies and ttrpg writeups. I don't seem to have taken any photos at all in October (not even normal ones) so there's just November and December to do. And I'm apparently getting a new moderator next year and am probably going to make a great first impression with the nonsense this year has been.
I should probably start going to bed earlier as I'm constantly tired and staying up late trying to cram more work in doesn't seem to be working. But I keep doing it because I feel bad about not getting a lot done. It's a vicious perpetual cycle.
I have done literally nothing on either project since the last progblog.
This time I got distracted choreographing a "fight" scene for the big boys. And because I'm a bit extra it's easier to visualise, I 3d'd it.
There are many and some of them are just things I've decided to add on because I'm not very smart like that.
After WoDMod1 finished I started hacking on a dice system I'd written for AER two decades ago x_x when I was roleplaying a lot more. It mostly worked out fine when I was playtesting it with the friends I roleplayed with frequently back then because it was a fork of World of Darkness with a lot of my fudges and homebrew built in (it's actually more or less the system I run now when we're playing World of Darkness, just closer to the original than my fork so the children reading the sourcebooks know what's going on).
I actually had them for the delay for once, and that was going out for birthday churros (not mine, but someone's).
After that I was trying to render out some super quick and dirty walk cycles (which are literally just hands and feet approximating walking motions, no refinements or personality injected whatsoever, which partially accounts for the jerkiness and the other part is only vaguely remembering how to do looping gifs and animated gifs in general and couldn't get the timing right when making the gif, I haven't done one for game engines yet and I don't use them at all for animations) and my computer crashed three times while rendering the first one (I'm a bit extra so I did three different views because of course I did).
Late progblog is late again but that's nothing new. This time was an interesting combination of I had to go in to work early and completely forgot to start (I'll usually make a start on writing in the morning, pick at it throughout the day and then finish up at night when I get back from work and do super basic if any edits) and then because I'm really close, figured I'll just get a render done to use as a cover image because I've been doing my usual doing a lot but nothing to show for it thing.
Do you think I could get a nice render? Physics did not want to play nicely.
Spent today trying to catch up with the last couple of weekend's worth of work and I have now almost completed the three main items that Yue carries around with her (partly because they're things that she uses very regularly and mostly because they're kind of a security blanket).
First is the airfoil, which is a sword when folded up:
