But then sometimes something demands a lot of attention and you need to hyperfocus on that sometimes to the detriment of everything else.

No, you don't get that? It's just me that has this problem?

Drat.

I continued having a lot of distraction working on all the roleplaying notes, finally getting to a stage where I felt somewhat comfortable running the last session of the "extra" group prelude despite missing notes for Vampire and Werewolf, and then that ended up falling through anyway as one of the players had an unexpected thing come up.  Least I got to write the story notes up properly and continue with the cheatsheet, which I'm kind of vainly hoping I will finish for at least player characters by this weekend x_x

Less cram for that did mean I actually got some other work done for a change.

Happy I Love You Day!

I spent Thursday to Sunday not being able to concentrate on any one thing for any length of time and just incrementally advanced a lot of things instead.  I don't know whether I feel somewhat accomplished at getting some work done on a lot of things or deflated because nothing feels done "enough", but it's a known thing that my idea of "enough" is actually unrealistic (at least in the timeframes I've got).

UASG

I finished Gundry's hands and felt a bit lost and confused (which is very normal when I actually finish something because I've been so all over the joint lately).

I think the schedule is working so far, it's just silly things like my general refusal to go to bed at a reasonable hour and general annoyances with youngest refusing to go to bed on time that's throwing spanners in my works now, in the form of "can't concentrate for the entire allocated time block".

Now occasionally weird things can happen in 3d either then I'm in the process of building something or when I walk away from a sculpt without really looking at where I stopped.  So after last night's work session I stopped at some point and went to bed and came back in the morning to

I'm still on an awkward "holiday" schedule (which is as similar as I could make it to the term schedule working around a holiday program that's running at the moment).  I'm still going to bed late and getting up early and really do have to nix that immediately because the memory issues are back in force and I have very definitely slowed down.

I've been up late making sure roleplaying stuff is sorted out because that's a thing that happens every weekend.  And I also have to actually check CoD character sheets because I'm not familiar enough with the system yet to be able to glance and go yep looks right like I can with WoD.

I think my preludes have been getting a bit too extra, they're basically mini campaigns at this point.  On the bright side, so far 3/6 players (1/6 is waiting his turn and 2/6 haven't given me character sheets yet) are happy with how their characters are running.

So still working on digits.

There's only multiple schedules because I have multiple people that I need to work with/around. 

With some assistance from sibling dearest which she started off for me like



_{Spoiler: I have yet to be in bed before midnight x_x}

I ended up with something that I'm going to be testing and tweaking for a little while til I know what (if anything) needs adjusting or something changes enough to require changing up.

Like everything it had a bit of a shaky start but things are starting to come together.

I was intending on trying to get back into the swing of things in the first week of January (including my blogging schedule) with the intention of seeing what in the work schedule that I'd done up (and been vaguely reworking on the fly) needed changing up.

I didn't end up doing the progblog and the work schedule really does need changing up. 

Though most of what I suffer from is the complete inability to keep to anything resembling time, and the fact that I have to be interruptable because JJ is the one with the full time job with defined hours.  So what I had was just stuff that needed to get done on what day, and just doing what I could when I could.

Happy New Year!

Listen to the song XD

^{I really should have finished this piece hours and hours ago, but I got distracted reading Chronicles of Darkness books and suggesting to the kids that we try a short run to test the system out and see if we like it enough to switch.  And so I don't have a story for this one because it's 1am.}

Yeh right like I ever take them.

I have seriously been moving like molasses and I really do need to actually change something, but because I'm me I'll probably just burnout again, have to recover for a few days again during which I'll relentlessly beat myself up over being an idiot again and that I really should have fixed it before it became this bad again, only to do exactly the same thing down the line again.

Neither of my main projects have advanced too much further since the last progblog.  I've kind of started working on Gundry's hands

and Zara's tattoo is still going.

The last major gymnastics event for the year is over, which took a lot of pressure off.

I finished the photobooks, more pressure off.

Then stuff happened with made things ramp up again, and it got so bad that I deliberately didn't do some mental health stuff that would have helped the frame of mind I fell into because there is literally absolutely no point whatsoever, because I'm wrong and everyone else is right and that's all there is to it no matter what.

And after I got over the thing that put me into the depressive spiral in the first place (spoiler: not actually over it) I felt really annoyed about not having progressed any of my projects so I stayed up late once more ostensibly to try to get some prog for the blog (I really need to stop staying up late and waking up early, apparently lack of sleep is pretty bad).

Stuff is ramping up.

I've been mostly working on photobooks trying to get them done in time for printing and shipping back to the island in the vain hopes it might not get there too late.  I've also been working on my dice system (it has undergone two major overhauls in about as many days) and roleplaying notes (gained a bit of extra time as the kids didn't feel like playing the weekend just gone, I brought the stuff over anyway just in case I actually needed it but got to just hang with my friend the entire time).

And I need to try harder to catch up with the homeschool miscellanies and ttrpg writeups.  I don't seem to have taken any photos at all in October (not even normal ones) so there's just November and December to do.  And I'm apparently getting a new moderator next year and am probably going to make a great first impression with the nonsense this year has been.